Self Doubt

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Who am I, Lord,

that I think I can write,

that I have anything to say,

that I can speak sometimes for you?

I have a middling brain, at best,

and some education,

but the longer I live, the less I know, it seems.

I can be lazy,

thick-headed,

shortsighted,

and careless.

There are so many others

who seem so much brighter and bolder,

so much more inspired and insightful

than I think I can ever be.

Sure, Moses felt inadequate, too.

And Jeremiah.

Paul, too.

I easily forget that they weren’t all that confident and serene

when you called them,

or even as you were using them.

But you used them.

So maybe you can do something with me.

Help me to trust that possibility,

and to write better

than I think I can,

in Jesus’ name, amen.